1. Post a Photo of Yourself:
I look sort of out of it, but I was testing out the light in my new room, but it's one of the newest pictures I have of myself. Also, no makeup and ridiculous hair is my favorite state of being on rainy days. I used to really hate my cheeks, how chubby they are, but I love my high cheeks bones. And because of that dislike for my cheeks, I used to hate smiling... I'm very glad I'm past it all.
2: A Description of Your Self-Esteem:
Fairly high, just about every single day. I do have off days, since I'm only human, but I think the moment you decide for yourself that you're beautiful, you are. There's no question, there's no contest, you just are. And since my validation comes from myself, I'm rarely (if ever) intimidated by those around me and I never depend on anyone else's opinion of what I look like. It's that simple, even if it's one of the hardest things in the world to actually commit to. I never body-shame others, I hardly ever have negative thoughts about others bodies anymore, which is really liberating. It's a package deal and I love it.
3: Your Favorite Book:
Fantasy: American Gods
YA Fantasy: Harry Potter series/Hunger Games Trilogy
Fiction: Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
Non-Fiction: Howard Zinn's A People's History of the United States
4. Biggest Turn-Offs:
Cockiness/vanity/ridiculous amounts of pride, lack of passion for life, apathy, not liking books, country music, soft hands, not being able to laugh in general or at themselves.
5. Biggest Turn-Ons:
Passion, intelligence, height, rough hands, eloquence, life experience, sense of humor (caustic, sarcastic, self-deprecating), good with kids, books, good communication skills, etc.
6. Most Famous Person You've Ever Met:
My cousin?
7. What do You Want to be When You're Older:
I don't know anymore. The last year has wildly changed who I am in so many different ways. Right now, I just want to work, and eventually get back into school to figure that out. I'd love to teach still, but there's so much I want to do, I don't want to limit myself.
8. Relationships With Your Siblings:
Good, even though they have habits that annoy me to high hell... constantly. My older brother, sister, and I are actually all getting tattoos together. Either this May in Washington, or sometime this summer in Florida. I'm really looking forward to that, though we all wish our youngest brother was interested in doing with us. I really and truly love them all.
9. Relationship Status:
Single and not looking. I've met so many guys, that I'm just exhausted by it all. No one really tickles my fancy.
10. What I Did Yesterday:
Hung out with my younger brother and his friends, read aloud to my mom, and applied at a cute children's boutique in town.
11. What I Did Today:
Helped brother pack, napped, went through some boxes, had a Game of Thrones marathon and geeked out in my Dire Wolf t-shirt.
12: What I'm Doing Tomorrow:
Applying at a children's bookstore, various clothing boutiques and thrift stores, as a receptionist, etc. And possibly grabbing lunch with my cousin if she feels like driving out here for a visit.
13. Most Embarrassing Moment:
Dear lord... there are so many. I think the one that still mortifies me, is before auditioning in front of about 200 people, my boyfriend included, someone tied my jacket to my chair and when I got up to audition, I tripped over it and the chair toppled over on me. When I finally got to the stage, I couldn't help but act like a little bitch, trying to play it off as if it hadn't bothered me. I lost out due to my indifference, and it was announced to everyone that if I hadn't acted that way afterwards, I would have gotten the part.
Mortifying.
14: Description of Who I Like:
Taller than I am, British accent to die for, brilliant, 40+ years my senior.
Played Snape in the Harry Potter movies.
Also, can do an amazing Russian accent, as he did in Die Hard.
....I wish I could have seen him in Seminar.
I fell for him when he played Colonel Brandon in Sense and Sensibility.
Oh, Alan Rickman, my one true love.
15. Biggest Insecurities:
I guess generally, that I'm not enough. This most likely stems from the fact that I have never not been cheated on, or some weird variation of that. This is also probably why I don't particularly care whether I'm single or not at the moment.
16: Something I Wish I Could Change About Myself
Hm... I wish that I was more financially stable. Not very exciting, I know, but this would make life so much easier.
17. I Will Love You If:
You're sincere and not completely self-important. It's pretty simple. I will also love you if you actively take part in anti-body/sex shaming policies.
18: Something You're Very Good At:
Singing, writing (when I'm inspired... not that you could tell if you've looked at all of my unfinished projects), taking care of others, being an auntie, forgiveness.
19: Something You've Very Bad At:
Time management, messing with ridiculously huge math equations, hanging up clothes.
20. What You Wish For At 11:11:
Nothing.
21. A Reason You've Lied to a Friend:
Um, to lose my virginity. She knows now, but at the time, she was less than pleased with me blowing her off for my then boyfriend.
22. Favorite Movie:
An Education, Amelie, Fight Club, Closer, Little Women (94), True Grit (10), The Hunger Games, Scream, other things.
23. Something That Has Made You Mad Recently:
I can't say that I've been truly mad lately, but I have been frustrated. I'm frustrated with the way people speak without regard for others, or the true meaning of the words they say. It frustrates me when people constantly say they'll do something, but never actually do it, and then blame everyone surrounding them for their own issues.
24. A Random Fact About Yourself:
I used to train in Karate?
25. What is Your Biggest Fear:
Losing who I am completely, forgetting where I've come from, what I've been through.
Losing my loved ones.
2: A Description of Your Self-Esteem:
Fairly high, just about every single day. I do have off days, since I'm only human, but I think the moment you decide for yourself that you're beautiful, you are. There's no question, there's no contest, you just are. And since my validation comes from myself, I'm rarely (if ever) intimidated by those around me and I never depend on anyone else's opinion of what I look like. It's that simple, even if it's one of the hardest things in the world to actually commit to. I never body-shame others, I hardly ever have negative thoughts about others bodies anymore, which is really liberating. It's a package deal and I love it.
3: Your Favorite Book:
Fantasy: American Gods
YA Fantasy: Harry Potter series/Hunger Games Trilogy
Fiction: Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
Non-Fiction: Howard Zinn's A People's History of the United States
4. Biggest Turn-Offs:
Cockiness/vanity/ridiculous amounts of pride, lack of passion for life, apathy, not liking books, country music, soft hands, not being able to laugh in general or at themselves.
5. Biggest Turn-Ons:
Passion, intelligence, height, rough hands, eloquence, life experience, sense of humor (caustic, sarcastic, self-deprecating), good with kids, books, good communication skills, etc.
6. Most Famous Person You've Ever Met:
My cousin?
7. What do You Want to be When You're Older:
I don't know anymore. The last year has wildly changed who I am in so many different ways. Right now, I just want to work, and eventually get back into school to figure that out. I'd love to teach still, but there's so much I want to do, I don't want to limit myself.
8. Relationships With Your Siblings:
Good, even though they have habits that annoy me to high hell... constantly. My older brother, sister, and I are actually all getting tattoos together. Either this May in Washington, or sometime this summer in Florida. I'm really looking forward to that, though we all wish our youngest brother was interested in doing with us. I really and truly love them all.
9. Relationship Status:
Single and not looking. I've met so many guys, that I'm just exhausted by it all. No one really tickles my fancy.
10. What I Did Yesterday:
Hung out with my younger brother and his friends, read aloud to my mom, and applied at a cute children's boutique in town.
11. What I Did Today:
Helped brother pack, napped, went through some boxes, had a Game of Thrones marathon and geeked out in my Dire Wolf t-shirt.
12: What I'm Doing Tomorrow:
Applying at a children's bookstore, various clothing boutiques and thrift stores, as a receptionist, etc. And possibly grabbing lunch with my cousin if she feels like driving out here for a visit.
13. Most Embarrassing Moment:
Dear lord... there are so many. I think the one that still mortifies me, is before auditioning in front of about 200 people, my boyfriend included, someone tied my jacket to my chair and when I got up to audition, I tripped over it and the chair toppled over on me. When I finally got to the stage, I couldn't help but act like a little bitch, trying to play it off as if it hadn't bothered me. I lost out due to my indifference, and it was announced to everyone that if I hadn't acted that way afterwards, I would have gotten the part.
Mortifying.
14: Description of Who I Like:
Taller than I am, British accent to die for, brilliant, 40+ years my senior.
Played Snape in the Harry Potter movies.
Also, can do an amazing Russian accent, as he did in Die Hard.
....I wish I could have seen him in Seminar.
I fell for him when he played Colonel Brandon in Sense and Sensibility.
Oh, Alan Rickman, my one true love.
15. Biggest Insecurities:
I guess generally, that I'm not enough. This most likely stems from the fact that I have never not been cheated on, or some weird variation of that. This is also probably why I don't particularly care whether I'm single or not at the moment.
16: Something I Wish I Could Change About Myself
Hm... I wish that I was more financially stable. Not very exciting, I know, but this would make life so much easier.
17. I Will Love You If:
You're sincere and not completely self-important. It's pretty simple. I will also love you if you actively take part in anti-body/sex shaming policies.
18: Something You're Very Good At:
Singing, writing (when I'm inspired... not that you could tell if you've looked at all of my unfinished projects), taking care of others, being an auntie, forgiveness.
19: Something You've Very Bad At:
Time management, messing with ridiculously huge math equations, hanging up clothes.
20. What You Wish For At 11:11:
Nothing.
21. A Reason You've Lied to a Friend:
Um, to lose my virginity. She knows now, but at the time, she was less than pleased with me blowing her off for my then boyfriend.
22. Favorite Movie:
An Education, Amelie, Fight Club, Closer, Little Women (94), True Grit (10), The Hunger Games, Scream, other things.
23. Something That Has Made You Mad Recently:
I can't say that I've been truly mad lately, but I have been frustrated. I'm frustrated with the way people speak without regard for others, or the true meaning of the words they say. It frustrates me when people constantly say they'll do something, but never actually do it, and then blame everyone surrounding them for their own issues.
24. A Random Fact About Yourself:
I used to train in Karate?
25. What is Your Biggest Fear:
Losing who I am completely, forgetting where I've come from, what I've been through.
Losing my loved ones.
